It has been almost a year since I graduated from Colorado State University, and if you’ve been following me for a while, you know, I’m still unemployed. While I have been working with the Department of Vocational Rehab, I have not had much success with them until this week.
This is because, quite simply, they have not been much help. I have been more than eager to work for months, yet they have not been as quick to assist me.
Back in Steamboat before I moved back to Fort Collins, I had a vocational counselor, who one day asked me why I couldn’t maintain eye contact, when he had known me for years. When my new vocational counselor brought eye contact up while we were meeting this week, it brought me right back to that moment with my former counselor in Steamboat and all I could do was bite my tongue.
I was meeting with my new counselor this week to prepare for an interview for Friday. Yet, for much of this week, I felt tempted to doubt and be angry. I was frustrated that I was having to put so much effort into one interview, for just a volunteer position that might turn into a paid internship. The more my counselor talked, the more I felt that things would be difficult, that I could not and would not do good at the interview, and that I would always be nothing more than a slave to my own mind.
However, it was when she said one thing, that my meeting with her on Tuesday was changed for the better.
“Jacob, the reason why we’re meeting is just so that you don’t end up floating down the river without a life jacket.”
As soon as she said that, I chuckled and then attempted to smile. For little did she know, I already survived falling in the Nile River, with no life jacket whatsoever.
For the rest of the meeting, I was attentive, focused, and my attitude was shifted from myself towards heaven. God spoke through someone, used someone who may not even know Him, just to remind me that He is faithful, that He is constant and true, and to lead me to abide in the truth of this passage from Matthew 6…
Matthew 6:25-34 New International Version (NIV)
25 “Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothes? 26 Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? 27 Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life[a]?
28 “And why do you worry about clothes? See how the flowers of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. 29 Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. 30 If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you—you of little faith? 31 So do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ 32 For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. 33 But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. 34 Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.
As much as I doubt Him, worry and forget what He’s done, He always finds a way to help me remember His faithfulness. Even more, He broadcasts His glory and truth all around me each and every day.
So, in the end, “Why should I worry? / Why should I care? / I may not have a dime! / But I’ve got street saviore faire!” He gives me everything I need. And the same is true for each and every one of you.
Until Next Time,
Jacobo
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